feminine urge to write angst 2p!indo chandra/dirga angst when chandra`s old name is dirga but have to gave it to the new personification. the harsh and broken chandra having love-relationship with his other self and hating dirga for having his name that kanda Nusantara always calling him so dearly. "he didn`t even know who kanda nusa is, but having my name who he always call so dear, nothing rage me more.". while chandra is the one who can change the people of country, dirga is the one who changed by the people. when dirga having weird scars randomly, and couldn`t talk but ibu pertiwi didn`t know what hapd to the youngest chandra connecting the dots, when the country is not in the good condition, so dirga is. "so weak", he thinks. but proceed to rebuild anything wrong with this country. when freedom of speech finally achieved, chandra coming home with a warm sound of unfamiliar voice, "welcome home, abang." then he sees old himself in dirga, who still young and naive, someone who need protection. it`s a fool that he didn`t know ibu pertiwi create dirga because she`s missing the old dirga (chandra). he finally accept his faith, protecting dirga while still mainn the love-hate relationship trope (tsundere). yes, this is some part of my wip :3

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