hey z, its been a while, hasn’t it? i’ve gone over a thousand times what I’d say to you if I ever had the chance. i’d go over so many things and it would always change, so i never really had a clue what I’d say. but I never got a chance to talk to you. and eventually you just became a memory, something i liked to think about every now and then. u became distant and i didn’t even know u anymore. i don’t really know you anymore even now. but i do know what i’d say to you. i’ve come to the conclusion of the few things i would say to u. i’d let you know that first off, i truly did love you. i loved you more than i loved myself…. that was my first mistake. loving you more than i loved myself was a big big mistake because when you left i wasn’t sure what to love or even how to love something.

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